When realization hit

this morning I felt like such a FOOL! It literally made me physically sick. Hatred is not strong enough to define what I now feel. I sit here and wonder why nobody told me, and wonder how much laughing has gone on behind my back. I have absolutely no trust anymore. Enjoy the ride. Sleep well at night. Don't give another thought to what the hell it's done to me. But don't ever, ever come anywhere near me again. Leave me and mine alone. I don't tolerate filth, and make no mistake, that is EXACTLY what you are. Tell yourself whatever you have to but the fact that you aspire to be seepage is now clear to everyone, not just me. Regardless of what they say to your face. How does it feel? To now know that people are talking about what a dirt merchant you are, but smiling and playing nice when you are around. The funny part of the whole thing is, I could change where you sit on your high horse right now, and introduce you to the ground. HARD. Because I wasn't the only one being lied to. Just because you don't see something, never mistake that its there. No matter what you've been told. I have the proof of that. But why do anything to hurt you? You will get hurt soon enough without any help from me. That's just the way the world works, and if you live a lie, abuse the people who trusted you, it will not only bite you in the ass, it will chew you up and spit you out, into an unrecognizable mess that only shadows what you pretended to be. You are a lying, repulsive bit of filth, and I can't wait to see you fall. And when you do I will be there. To do exactly what you did for me. I will take great pleasure in kicking you when you are down. Count on it.